Through Phoenix

I woke up in the deepest depths of me
In the crushing darkness of the sea
So close to the edge
Unable to back off the ineveitble ledge
No one there to help or act
How are my kids going to react?
How has his come to this?
Me of all people, would you even miss?
I continue to lie to my Mom
Every time I smile, its a ticking time bomb
So fake, nothing can be real
But yet I've managed to heal
Only I can define me
Only I believe in me.
Excuse me as I burst into flame
Sick of who I was becoming
Spread my wings beneath this shame
So sick of who I was in me
Through Phoenix, this is my journey