Muddy Waters

This is just a phase
It was just a phrase
What if it wasn't a real question?
It could have been just a suggestion
Forgive me,  my mind wanders
Through muddy waters
More often than I count sheep
Still begging to finally go to sleep
Still wondering why I gave all of me
Still searching through that muddy water before me

-ZKH 
12/25/13

The Collective

Collective soul
Collective sigh
All of their collective eyes
Couldn't bring you back again
Couldn't make me pretend
Would rather have a collective of lead
Lodged inside my head

-ZKH
12/21/13

Bound

Bound to the words we sing
Bound to the words we sink

Mind over matter
Mind doesn't matter

Who do you think we are?
Who do you think you are?

What's left to say?
What's left to save?

Bound to the youth
Bound to the truth

The soulless wonder
The soulless hunger

Break on through
Break onto

I hung on by a thread
I hold up my own head

Bound to the future
Bound to... I've had enough of you.

12\21\2013
-ZKH

Free

Look into the stars
We will see
Just who we are

I hope you can believe
Now we are...
Free

Come with me
Leave your conscious be
And count to three

I hope you can breathe
Now we are...
Free

On the edge
Of my dreams
What will be,  will be

I hope you can forsee
Now we are...
Free

On the other hand
As I make my last stand
I want you to understand
Now I am... 
Me

Infected from Within

Erase it all
Like a spotless mind
Strike a match
But no one's got the time
Listen to your shaddows
As you fall asleep
So strong inside
Too afraid to weap
Watching you become a zombie
That refuses to feed on brain
I wish I could watch you
Dance in the rain
I bet you think
This is about you
I'm just searching
For my youth
Is it wrong?
Is sacrifice a sin?
Sitting here,  watching
You infected from within.

12/5/13
-ZKH

December Days

I want to hear
Your December's Day
I want to hear
You say my name

I want to hear
You break down and realize
I want to hear
That I won't over analyze

I want to hear
You say it just once
I want to hear
Your lack of fear or reluctance

I want to hear
The truth from within
I want to hear
Everything or even anything

These Shaddows

Shell of myself
As the darkness sets in
Victim's of ourselves
No feeling left in my skin

When these shadows talk to me
Who will lead the way?
I only need me...
Still standing to your dismay

Shell of a life
As I breathe, as I bleed
Not alive to die
As I agreed,  as you plead

When these shadows talk to me
Who will lead the way?
Wait till you see what I become
I've only just begun

-ZKH
11-29-13

Enemy of the State

Enemy of the State
Is in my mind
Twisting and turning
It's praying for light
What if you gave up and gave in?
How could I say goodbye then?

-ZKH
11/26/13

Beautiful Disaster

For all the words
I should of said
For all the things
I could of said

Corruption & Self Righteousness, suits you
Yet I wonder how you stomach you
Some words can not be undone
As you scream and mock the sun

Such a beautiful disaster
Wishing the moon would rise faster
Implosions and explosions
Wont save your soul from this erosion

The wish
To take it slow
The wish
To just let go

I fly so high
But I've fallen from your sky
Im still remember your lie
Why did I even try?

And We Danced

I can see the lack of happiness in your eyes
even tho its halloween, its not a very good disguise
it takes two to tango, that is what has caused our demise
including a lack of effort and empty cries
first kiss, last dance, I guess Im too traditional to believe in the past
this will be the last passage that I write about your ass
and we danced with the chance of youth
and we lost everything including the truth
this whole process is very empowering
as I search for this person who used to be me
I truly wish you the best in everything you do
Id rather be with no one, than anyone ever... like you

Just Friends

Give me
Something I can relate to
If you only knew
Just friends

Tell me
Something that your afraid to
How about I buy a clue?
Just friends

Show me
Something that you go through
still avoiding this deja vu
Just friends

-ZKH
10/30/13

Through Phoenix

I woke up in the deepest depths of me
In the crushing darkness of the sea
So close to the edge
Unable to back off the ineveitble ledge
No one there to help or act
How are my kids going to react?
How has his come to this?
Me of all people, would you even miss?
I continue to lie to my Mom
Every time I smile, its a ticking time bomb
So fake, nothing can be real
But yet I've managed to heal
Only I can define me
Only I believe in me.
Excuse me as I burst into flame
Sick of who I was becoming
Spread my wings beneath this shame
So sick of who I was in me
Through Phoenix, this is my journey

Illusions

See what you see
Or see what you want
Feel what you feel
Or feel what you admit
The touch of your skin and I give in
Please don't tempt me with your lips
I'm safely locked away as I come to grips
So afraid your my weakness
Is it okay to give into this?
Irrelevant is our futures and past
This moment right here can last
You're not nearly as tough as you think
Nothing will change as we embrace
Stare into my soul... just don't blink
So close, we can relate
As the chaos of her curls
Fell across her face

ZKH
10/02/13

Day I Drown

Day I Drown

I gotta get out
of this head
I gotta get out
of this bed
so close but so far
these chemicals burn and leave a scar

this is
the day i drown
this is
deafening from the sound
of your silence
married into different climates

so far
from the truth
so far
from our youth
empty souls inside this
getting lost in this abyss

I gotta get out

of this head

I gotta get out

of this bed

so close but so far

these chemicals burn and leave a scar

-ZKH

7/31/13

Anchor

Anchor

your made up kiss
hanging on
one last wish

your fire set past
my broken cast
now could we last?

all these days
you drag me around
you threw an anchor
just to watch me drown

another hit off of dreams
you and me
never free

slide it over
yesterday
you never had a lot to say

all these days

you drag me around

you threw an anchor

just to watch me drown

your whisper freak

ending this

my futures bleak

lost in the sea

waiting to see

how much you mean to me

all these days

you drag me around

you threw an anchor

just to watch me drown

-ZKH

4/23/98

My Own Eyes

Scared to give in
Scared of what I've been
So stuck, I cant move
Paralyzed, as you disapprove
Nothings left inside
Left wide open as I wilt and die

Underneath this fragile face
Lies a person that I can't relate
Leave me in this place
With this mind as I negotiate

I cant change
My own eyes look strange
Can't look in this Mirror
And I still can't hear
Even if I try
I'll keep asking "Why?"

Underneath this fragile face

Lies a person that I can't relate

Leave me in this place

With this mind as I negotiate

Here I stand

With their future at hand

I had to find out who I really was, or wasn't

So Sick of who I was, or wasn't

Nothing can stop me

Because I have to be... me.

7/25/13

These Nights

These nights are getting longer
These nights are getting louder
She took my soul and everything
You know that feeling you get

These nights are getting darker

These nights are getting bolder

She took my soul and everything

You know that feeling you get

These nights are getting braver

These nights are what makes her

She took my soul and everything

You know that feeling you get

7/16/13

For Sometime

How does it feel
When I woke up in spite of myself
How does it feel
When I woke up inside of myself
Always closer to the rain
Always closer to the pain

your a spectacle
for sometime
all your tentacles
all your lines

Have you known
About your insides
Have you known
Your lillies Lied
Always further from the sane
Always further from the same

your a spectacle

for sometime

all your tentacles

all your lines

7/16/13