Through Phoenix

I woke up in the deepest depths of me
In the crushing darkness of the sea
So close to the edge
Unable to back off the ineveitble ledge
No one there to help or act
How are my kids going to react?
How has his come to this?
Me of all people, would you even miss?
I continue to lie to my Mom
Every time I smile, its a ticking time bomb
So fake, nothing can be real
But yet I've managed to heal
Only I can define me
Only I believe in me.
Excuse me as I burst into flame
Sick of who I was becoming
Spread my wings beneath this shame
So sick of who I was in me
Through Phoenix, this is my journey

Illusions

See what you see
Or see what you want
Feel what you feel
Or feel what you admit
The touch of your skin and I give in
Please don't tempt me with your lips
I'm safely locked away as I come to grips
So afraid your my weakness
Is it okay to give into this?
Irrelevant is our futures and past
This moment right here can last
You're not nearly as tough as you think
Nothing will change as we embrace
Stare into my soul... just don't blink
So close, we can relate
As the chaos of her curls
Fell across her face

ZKH
10/02/13

Day I Drown

Day I Drown

I gotta get out
of this head
I gotta get out
of this bed
so close but so far
these chemicals burn and leave a scar

this is
the day i drown
this is
deafening from the sound
of your silence
married into different climates

so far
from the truth
so far
from our youth
empty souls inside this
getting lost in this abyss

I gotta get out

of this head

I gotta get out

of this bed

so close but so far

these chemicals burn and leave a scar

-ZKH

7/31/13